Today has been a bit of a strange day in some ways, but it might just be that I’m actually feeling... optimistic for the first time in a long time. Again, I don’t expect that the new job or the new house are going to be perfect, but they are going to be a change and an opportunity to put some of the baggage behind me.
I’ve been listening to a couple of songs on repeat from Hollerado (go Canadian rock), “Juliette”, and “Born Yesterday”. I recommend them on whichever streaming service you prefer, or there might be an option to buy a physical CD or something. They’re very complementary songs
“Juliette” is about a woman who’s looking back on her life as she comes to the end and faces her own death. I’m not going to go nuts on analysing the lyrics, but they’re good and the music is awesome. I see it as being about living your life without regret and accepting things for how they are. I hope to take some of that perspective and fold it into how I think about the last few years in my current role.
“Born Yesterday” is more forward looking, with the refrain of “For you make me feel / Like I was born yesterday / Like I’ve never been broken”. I’m taking this as a positive forward look. When you’re stuck in a negative or depressing situation, it’s very hard to remember that it ends, and that once it’s all done you can look forward and see something new and different.
This kind of open optimism is something I’ve felt a few times in the past, and it’s one of the most wonderful feelings - all possibility and no doubt. Makes me think a lot about my daughter and how I want this to be how she feels all the time.